The Covid19 virus is impacting us all in ways we would not have imagined just 30 days ago. A dear friend of mine stopped in at the farmhouse yesterday; I had asked her to come by any time months ago. Her visit would be have been welcome at any time, but now as it turns out. We have been self-isolating for over a week and my husband has a pre-existing condition. She had not been keeping up with the developments and was perplexed when she was not greeted with a hug and an invitation to come into the house for a cup of tea.
When she left I felt sad; we hadn’t connected in a long while and this opportunity to share time was lost as I stood firm in keeping our social distancing. It was too much to explain that social distancing is a social responsibility as our hospitals do not have enough respirators and care to take care of all citizens if we unnecessarily get sick at this time. I wanted to tell her that I knew we would all get this virus eventually, but right now was not a good time to be exposed. My heart ached and I had been an ungracious host. This is our new reality, and she was not quite ready to see it; we are each waking up to it at our own pace.
My fascination with pandemics began many years ago; I was practicing at a major teaching-research hospital here in North Carolina and my patient coming in for migraines was the MD heading of the infectious disease department at the facility. I mentioned to him during one treatment session that I was a bit of a pandemic nerd and asked him if I was being unrealistic; his answer was an unapologetic, “not if but when” kind of retort with a grim face; I was beginning to understand the underlying stress causing his head pain.
In one respect my brain has been adapting to this scenario of events for years; but in reality, I could have never comprehended the reality that has descended upon us all. Be careful out there! And I would love to hear your shared experiences in the comment box!